Goals and Cuddles

I never can go to sleep at the same time as Brandon. I really think in the back of my head its just another thing to add to the list of things that could be depressing me. We always have our talks, cuddle time and movie time before we go to bed. And lately, thats not been happening. So, its slowly upsetting me. And another thing, my dad has made a comment recently that "my metabolism is slowing down". Okay people! I get it. Im working on it. Im gonna start doing yoga again, and then when I get all stretched out, I'm going to do my workouts. Its almost bathing suit season time anyways!

Me and Brandon are going to go check out a car this afternoon. Possibly a car for who? Me!! yay! Just kidding, Im nervous as fuck to drive still. I really need to see a doctor about the possibility of ADHD/ADD. I scare myself driving enough as it is with the whole "trying to stay focused so much it fucks me up" the last thing I need in my life is for me to fail the test to find out afterwards, you DO have ADD/ADHD! But, from what I'm hearing about this car I think I'm going to love it!

I still haven't talked to my mom. Its been 8 days today. She hasn't tried to contact me and vice versa. If it does come down to me having to see a doctor, I will have to contact her. And if she really isn't planning on going to Sammi's first Birthday I have to contact her. Just because were in a fight, doesn't mean she should miss her granddaughters first birthday. Plus, I can go if she goes since she'll be driving and not staying the weekend.

I've been meaning to start working for my dad so I can save up some much needed money.. I need money for school, gas, the rims I want for this car, tanning, the Ocean day me and Brandon are going to take AND I plan to pay my dad back for this car. I don't want to be one of those kids that their parents just handed the car over to them. So, my total so far?

School: $8,000. butttt for the 4 years, its 32000 [ If I decide to go to Lincoln then, I won't have to pay them back for 3 years]
Gas: thats just an all around thing.
Rims: Not sure, but the spray paint is gonna cost around 30 bucks.
Tanning: 3 sessions: about 20 .
Ocean City Goal: 100.
Car: 500.

So, Not including school. Were already at 650. What I have so far? $0.00
Thats 130 listings. Which honestly, when I look at it that way. It doesn't seem so bad. I can do it though. Plus! When I start driving, JOB TIMMMEEE!

Anyways, Brandon might be buying another car. I really look up to him. He owns 4 cars, pays his insurance, pays his rent, pays for me. And I think its hard to pay for one thing like a 500 dollar car. He really is amazing. <3

I love him so much.